I don’t know why but this BFN is hitting me harder than after my last cycle of IVF. Maybe because I had so much more hope this time. Last night we were at family dinner with my parents, sister/BIL, and my nephews. Ian the 2 yo was doing something and kicked me really hard and I SNAPPED at him. I never do that, ever. I felt like shit afterwards. On Friday someone at work asked me how I was doing and I just burst into tears and ran out of the room. I am soooo embarrassed.
We had our WTF last week and my RE said it was just bad luck and he can’t see any reason this didn’t work. He said he was confident we’d be pregnant soon. But we are waiting til January to try again. The holidays are going to be busy and hopefully we will be able to enjoy them.